CW: This piece contains mentions of depression and anxiety

Mental health is a term floating around society right now. It is one of the most important issues in the world. According to the World Health Organization, depression is a leading illness for teens ages 15-19. Even scarier, suicide is the third leading cause of death for that age range. This is a crisis that is not talked about enough and has way too much stigma around it. But, that's not what I am discussing today.

My personal journey with mental health has been one that I have been struggling with since I was 7 years old. Now look, I am not here to make you all feel bad for me and go “aww”, but I did go through that dark period in my life. It took a lot to get me out, sadly I was too young to join BBYO during that time, but since I have joined I haven’t sunk completely back into that dark place.

Yes, I've had my days, but it hasn't gotten close to the way I was before. There are many different reasons for that. First, I made bonds that will last me a lifetime. These are the people who will stay up all night on the phone with me to make sure I am okay and alive. But, the thing that is the most interesting in my opinion is how leadership has improved me and my mental state.

The best way I think to explain it I think is by saying it gives purpose. I personally know without me, my chapter would not be the same. I know I have worth in my chapter, and that I am an important part. I especially realized this when I began to take on board positions. I knew I had a group of people that depended on me to be there for them. Not just in my chapter, but also regionally and internationally.

Next time people ask me why I am so involved in BBYO, my answer will be this: If I was not so involved, I would not feel needed. I would not have people who check in on me to make sure I am okay, and that I am getting my work done.

Yes, I am in fear of burnout. I load myself with a lot of work, I take hard classes, and I still need time to be a kid, but I have a passion. This sounds so cheesy, but BBYO acts as a spark in my life. It just doesn't feel like a burden or feel like work, so to say. I know it's something that I love doing, even if it's occasionally somewhat tedious.

BBYO is more than just an organization. It is something that has helped me figure out who I am and find my worth. It found me a lifelong family that I know will never leave me. I have a place where I know people care about me and my mental health. I also hold leadership roles, which improves my mental health. As it says on page 2 in the Red Book:

“The more of yourself that you will give to BBG, the more you will receive.”

I have given my all, and I have received more than I could have ever asked for in return.